Dare to share

Have you ever felt like you were the only one that struggles with something?  Like what you are going through is unique to just you and no one else could understand?  Or maybe you’ve felt that even though others have been in a similar situation, they surely “handled it” better than you did?  Like they were far more spiritual and steady than you are, and therefore, you are failing…..maybe even failing in your faith?

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I recently sat in a room with some women as they shared their stories.  They talked about their life experiences and their heartaches.  One was raised in an abusive home, and experienced years of pain and grief.  Another became pregnant at a very young age.  Another wandered from the faith she was raised with as the years of life grew on her.  Another has experienced addiction.   

As I listened to their stories, I couldn’t help but to be in awe of them!  Sharing their stories took courage!  But something else happened when they shared.  The others in the room had the courage to also open up about their own struggles. 

God promises that we are never alone in our trials.

Isaiah 41:10 says “Don’t be afraid, for I am with you. Don’t be discouraged, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you. I will hold you up with my victorious right hand.”

God assures us many times in His word that He is always with us.  That He will never leave us.  That we do not need to walk this life alone.

But the enemy likes to isolate us and make us believe that we are alone.  He whispers the lie that “No one struggles with this like you do.” And “Her faith is stronger than yours is, so this is easier for her to go through.” How about this one, “If you share that part of your life, they will think badly of you.  It’s better to keep it to yourself until you fix it….”.  Lies.  

The enemy is constantly trying to keep us from community, from fellowship with Jesus and with others.  I’m sure you’ve heard the phrase “strength in numbers”?  There is such truth there.   When we choose to be connected to the body of Christ through church, small groups, and bible studies, we are exercising that principle.  We are placing ourselves in community with others for support and encouragement.  When we do so, we have others around us to love, support and remind us of God’s love and faithfulness.

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When we choose to be honest and open about our stories, it not only helps us, but it truly helps others as well. 

Think of it this way; When you are experiencing a difficulty in your life, isn’t it easier to talk it out with someone who has been down a similar road?  It is our shared experiences that bind us.  Often our situation is not exactly the same as our sister’s.  But just knowing that she also wrestled in her heart and faith to get through something can help us feel less like the failure that the enemy wants to convince us that we are.  Hearing her talk about it opens up a place in our souls for healing to begin. 

2 Corinthians 1:4 “He comforts us in all our troubles so that we can comfort others. When they are troubled, we will be able to give them the same comfort God has given us.”  The idea here is that we share our struggles to encourage each other.  This way no one needs to feel alone.  Too many women feel alone in this life.  But as we share life, we realize that not only are we united in our struggles, but in our strength as well!

The women I spoke about today are beautiful women of God!  Each one has changed and continues to grow in her faith and trust in God.  The beautiful thing about our stories, is that The Author still has the pen in His hand.  If your life and story is not what you want it to be, take heart!  It is not over yet!  As long as there is breath in our lungs, there is time to grow.  And there is time for God to work.

If you are currently in a struggle, don’t keep it to yourself, share life with your faith community.  If you are without a faith community to plug into, I strongly encourage you to seek one out! Share gently, and within the walls of trust inside your connections, but share.  You are not alone.   Don’t allow yourself to continue to be isolated in your trial.  Help and healing begins when we bring the truth into the light. 

If you are “on the other side” of a struggle, someone needs to hear from you.  Someone is hurting and isolated.  Someone needs to hear how God brought you through.  God WILL use our trials for good.  Nothing is wasted with Him.  He can use the fragments of broken pieces in our lives, but we must share them for that to happen.  He didn’t bring you through the pain just for yourself, He wants to use it in the lives of those He connects you to. 

God, I know you want to use my story for your glory.  Lead me to share where you want to shine.  I trust that you will draw my heart to another who needs to see your face reflected in mine.  I want my life to bring you honor as I share all that you’ve done for me.  Please give me courage to be transparent.



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A gentle whisper

Sometimes life is noisy, isn’t it?  There are often times when the noise of life is just plain loud. 

Loud noise in life sounds like stressful situations; job loss, financial shortcomings, relationship struggles, issues with adult “children”, divorce, moving, trauma and so on.  Sometimes, the noise of life is all we can hear.  It’s easy to hear only the noise when it speaks so loudly in our ears.  But what’s challenging is to hear the voice of God in our hearts when the pressures and noise of life is so loud.  In those difficult situations in life, when we most need God’s help and direction, His voice is often quieter than the noise.  So how do we hear it over all the loud?

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Where I live it, is often windy, like a lot windy.  And when the weather is warmer, I like to get out hiking.  Hiking in the wind is not difficult, in fact I am often grateful for the breeze as it keeps me cooler as I go along.  However, when I am hiking with someone, having conversation can be tricky.  The wind can make it difficult to hear each other well enough to effectively communicate.  Try as we might, conversing in the wind is difficult.  The best way to hear someone’s voice when there is loud noise all around, is to lean in when they speak. 

As I have grown in my faith and in my relationship with God, I have tried to get closer to Him, I desire to hear Him speak into my life more clearly.  It isn’t always easy.  There are times when life is so difficult and loud, that all I seem to be able to hear is the noise.  I imagine that you can relate.

In the book of 1 Kings, we come across a curious but understandable (from a human perspective) situation for the prophet Elijah.  Elijah has just defeated the prophets of Baal.  This is an amazing and true story of God showing His almighty power and authority! (read 1 Kings 18:20-40) Next, Elijah’s life is threatened by Jezebel, and she was no one to be trifled with!  She was the wife of king Ahab (a truly wicked king) and is well known in scripture for being a wicked woman herself.  Elijah had good reason to be worried when she promised that within 24 hours she was going to kill him.  This was no idle threat. 

Elijah flees to Judah, heads into the wilderness alone, and prays to God that he might die.  This seems pretty desperate, right?  He tells God, “I have had enough”.  But the angel of the Lord comes to him, feeds him, and instructs him to head out on a journey.  Elijah obeys God and heads out on this journey that lasts 40 days and 40 nights.  Here, he comes to a cave and spends the night.  And we pick it up in verse 9, where God says to Elijah “what are you doing here?”  I can almost imagine Elijah rolling his eyes!  “OBVIOUSLY, I am hiding from Jezebel!  This is all too much for me to handle!” 

1 Kings 19:11-12 says this, “The Lord said, “Go out and stand on the mountain in the presence of the Lord, for the Lord is about to pass by.  Then a great and powerful wind tore the mountains apart and shattered the rocks before the Lord (noisy), but the Lord was not in the wind. After the wind there was an earthquake (noisy), but the Lord was not in the earthquake. After the earthquake came a fire (noisy), but the Lord was not in the fire. And after the fire came a gentle whisper.”  The implication here is that God was speaking through the whisper!

So many times, all we hear in life is the noise.  We assume that God is speaking to us in the noise.  But the example here is that after the noise, there was a gentle whisper.  I think that maybe Elijah was more in tune to hear the whisper of God because the noise of the wind, the earthquake and the fire had been so loud. In the quiet that followed, he was able to hear the voice that the noise had made impossible.

Difficult and stressful situations in life can be noisy.  All consuming.  Loud.  But if we pause and lean in, often the gentle whisper of God follows. 

And it is in those times, when we pause the noise and listen, that we receive the leading and direction from God that we are truly desiring.

In my life there have been many times with so much noise.  I have been confused, hurt, distraught and lost, not knowing what to do with all that was troubling me.  I can resonate with Elijah when he told God that he had had enough.  Maybe you can too.

Have you ever “heard” the voice of God? I have. For me, it was not audible, but I heard it none the less. It came in as a gentle stirring in my soul and grew to be surer and clearer as I continued to lean in and listen for it. I found that the more time I spent in the word, and in prayer, the closer I drew to Him, and the more confident I was that the stirring voice in my heart was in fact, from God. Sometimes as Christians, we say things like “God told me…” or “God confirmed in my heart…” and it can sound a bit odd to those outside the faith. Sometimes it even sounds odd to our fellow believers who have yet to experience it. But don’t let that stop you from listening. Knowing that you have heard God clearly on an issue, brings so much peace and purpose. For me, it has brought into my life the drive and forward motion I have needed. Even when what I was seeing in front of me made me question going forward on the path.

The example of Jesus is clear for us in scripture.  Jesus got alone with God often and spent some time in prayer.  He was listening.  He very much needed to hear from His heavenly father.

Just after feeding the 5000 in Matthew 14, we see Jesus needing some alone time.  Verse 23 tells us, “After he had dismissed them, he went up on a mountainside by himself to pray. Later that night, he was there alone.”  I almost get the sense that Jesus lost rack of time as He was with the Father.  I am certain that His time with His Father was something that He needed, desired and prioritized.  I don’t think Jesus had to write “do devotions” on his daily to-do list.  I doubt that Jesus had to discipline Himself to make that time. His time with the Father was something He looked forward to.  And if the son of man needed time with the Father, so do you and I.

Spending time with God through reading my bible and praying is part of my (almost) daily routine.  In the last year I have become very intentional about that, and I have grown so much because of it.  This past week I did something new though.  I took my Bible, a notebook and Bible study that I am working my way through, and I went to the park.  I found a quiet picnic bench and spread out my things.  It was a warm evening, and the breeze was perfect.  And in the hour or so that I spent there, I heard from God.  It was so good for me to take the time away from home, to really focus.  There were no chores calling my name there at the park.  It was different and refreshing in a way that I didn’t fully anticipate!

I encourage you to take some time alone, to get away with God, and really listen.  He won’t disappoint you.  He has so much He wants to share with you, but He won’t force it on you. If you will make the time, you will likely hear Him whisper to your heart the very peace, purpose and direction that you need.  You don’t have to leave home to do it but finding a quiet place or time alone will surely make a difference.  Get away from the noise of life, the pressures and to-do lists.  Be intentional about it and He will meet you there.  Jeremiah 29:13 makes it plain, “You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart.”  He desires to be found by us. 

Are you wrestling within your soul over something?  Are you facing a difficult time and are unsure of God’s leading there?  Maybe things are pretty peaceful for you, and you wonder what God has next for you.  Whatever the situation, get away with God, and listen for His whisper.  He’s ready, He desires for you to hear Him, and He has the answer you want. 

Lord, my prayer is simple today.  I want to know you more.  Show me and give me a pocket of time soon where I can meet with you.  Help me to prioritize some time with you so that I can hear your gentle whisper away from the noise of life.  Help me to see it and to seize it when it comes.  Amen.



The Quiet Within

Once in a while, I come to a passage or a verse in scripture that, frankly, I just don’t like.

The verses in 1 Peter chapter 3 are some of those very ones.  “Don’t be concerned about the outward beauty of fancy hairstyles, expensive jewelry, or beautiful clothes.  You should clothe yourselves, instead, with the beauty that comes from within, the unfading beauty of a gentle and quiet spirit, which is so precious to God.”  The concept here is not that we should be plain, or not care AT ALL about our appearance.  Rather, the idea is that we should not ONLY care about our appearance.  That we should prioritize the beauty that comes from within.  When my children were growing up, I always told them “It’s more important to be pretty on the inside than the outside”. 

Ok, inner beauty over outer beauty.  Check.  Got it.  That seems simple enough.  But that’s not the part I struggle with.  It’s the next part.

“…the unfading beauty of a gentle and quiet spirit.”  Boom.  Drop the mic.  That’s where I have to stop every time and say “Well, I guess I’ll never get that one right.”  Gentle and quiet (especially quiet) is not me.  It’s almost the exact opposite of me.  I wonder if maybe I will never truly live up to what I think God expects of me. 

Growing up, my report cards in school were fairly consistent, especially in elementary school.  “Shelli is a good student, a pleasure to have in class, but she talks to much.”  Ask my mom, this was on more than just a few report cards!  One teacher explained to my mom at parent conferences, that she wanted to help me learn better in class.  Since my constant talking was a problem and often a distraction, the teacher decided to move me away from my friends.  She seated me with the boys in class, thinking that would quiet me down.  Nope!  I talked to them too.  Then she had the bright idea that if I were seated right next to her desk, that I would certainly have to be quieter.  That was also a no go.  I just talked to HER!  She eventually gave up and simply moved me back with my friends and shushed me more often.  (In 5th grade I also got kicked out of choir at school for, you guessed it, too much talking, but that’s a story for another day…)

So, you can see why a passage of scripture that says I should be quiet, is a struggle for me.  If you know me, you know that “quiet” is not in my DNA.  No one I know would use that word in describing me! They will usually throw terms like “sassy” and “funny” out there.  But never quiet. You can usually tell when I am in the room.  I am not a wallflower, fading into the background.  I often have something to say, and I will typically say it.  So, when I thought that scripture was telling me to be quiet in volume, or with my words, I wrestled with that.  The enemy was using my perception of what I THOUGHT the scripture was saying, against me.  What I heard in my lack of knowledge about the truth scripture here was, “you need to change, you can’t be YOU anymore, God can’t use you the way you are…” and so on.  I was uneasy.

I decided to do the only smart thing I could think of, to dig into the study notes in my bible as well as other sources and teachings on the subject.  When it comes to scriptures that we do not understand, there are so many other study tools to help. Proverbs 3:5-6 reminds me that when I don’t understand, that He will direct me.  Some passages simply require further study and resources.

What I found when I looked further, was a huge relief to my heart!  I discovered that, in this passage, God is not asking me to just be a quiet person with my words.  He isn’t telling me not to talk, or to talk less, or even to talk quieter.  The phrase used here is a quiet SPIRIT. 

The “quiet spirit” the apostle Peter is referring to here is actually about one being peaceful, or a peaceable person.  It suggests a tranquil quality of life.  The woman who is quiet in spirit does not spend her time “freaking out” about life!  She understands and trusts that God is in control of all things.  This is the kind of peace that we display on the outside, even when life is tumultuous all around us.  It means that when situations in life happen to cause us stress, and concern, we intentionally recall God’s faithfulness in the past.  Our spirit is quiet because we recognize that “God’s got this” essentially.  This kind of spirit makes each of us a joy for others to be around.  This quiet spirit draws others, with less peace in their own lives, toward us like a magnet.  Therefore, giving us an opportunity to share the hope we have in Jesus!

When our spirit is quiet, our life is able to declare loudly that we trust God.  Peace is not the absence of struggle, rather it is absolute confidence in The One who brings an end to the struggle.

Imagine that you are walking out in nature, and you come upon a flowing stream.  This peaceful stream invites and calls to you to come and sit on its shore and rest in the calmness of the sound of the water flowing gently by.  While you are resting there, you can hear birds chirping, leaves rustling in the breeze, and the soft sound of the water pouring over the tops of the rocks in the stream.  You can feel yourself being refreshed, like in Psalm 23.  Your desire is to sit and rest here as long as possible! 

Now imagine that you are out walking in nature, but you come upon the same stream in a place where the water is crashing loudly over the rocks.  The force of the water is powerful and strong. You can see the white caps that seem to be declaring “danger” with their noise.  You can’t hear the birds chirping or the leaves rustling.  All you can hear is the tremendous sound of the water demanding your attention as it rushes powerfully downstream.  This is not a place where you’ll want to sit and rest or take a break.  It is a stressful scene. 

In both scenarios, there is power being displayed within the water. 

At the part of the stream where the water is furiously crashing and moving, there is great commotion on the surface.  There is visible turmoil and sometimes deafening noise.  All the fury of the water is seen and demands attention.  You cannot rest here, and you are compelled to move away to a quieter place!

At the peaceful place in the stream, the surface of the water is calm, and seems to be barely moving.  But underneath there is a great strength forcing the water downstream.  You are able to relax peacefully here.  You can enjoy the beauty of the softly flowing water, not fully realizing the strong current underneath the surface that keeps that water flowing.  There is rest and peace here!

It is the same when the spirit of God is at work under the surface in me.  His power in us is displayed on our surface, in what others see reflected in us.   Am I “freaking out” on the outside, causing white caps in my own life?  Or am I trusting Him and allowing Him to do His work underneath while displaying calm on the surface?  God is not asking me to be quiet with my mouth, but to be quiet in my spirit. 

There are plenty of times when God asks His people to speak up, to boldly proclaim His truth and to spread peace.  I am best able to do this when I have a quiet (or strengthened) sprit within me.  Having a gentle and quiet spirit comes when we, in faith, obey God’s word.  That obedience builds trust, and trust promotes peace and faith.  The lessons we learn through obedience to His word result in our becoming more like Christ.  And after all, that is the goal, isn’t it?  Becoming more like Jesus? 

This quiet, or peaceful spirit, will give us the voice to speak.  To declare the goodness of God.  Having a gentle and “quiet” spirit will speak “louder” than any other rationale or “argument” that we could ever have for our faith!

There will be times when I do need to be quiet before Him.  I may need to be quiet instead of offering my opinion in every conversation.  I will always need the Holy Spirit to guide my words, and keep my mouth closed at times.  But I do not ALWAYS need to be a quiet person, it’s okay to speak out and speak up.  It’s okay to make a joyful noise!  What a relief for my soul!  I can now, in confidence, carry on being ME.  I can be myself, and let God use me the way He made me.  The change I need to make is within myself, and in my spirit.  God can use my outgoing, “sassy”, slightly less than quiet personality. 

Dear Lord, remind me of the water in the stream.  Remind me that your spirit can continually move and work underneath, while there is a calm presence on the surface.  Help me to trust you always and to display that trust through my quiet spirit in this life.  Let my quiet spirit be of great value in Your sight.

Sedona AZ
Sedona AZ



Faith in action

As a warm weather girl, I always look forward to the spring and summer months.  Like many things in nature, I really “come alive” when the weather turns warmer.  And when it does, it’s time to get outdoors again!

On a recent hiking venture, I came to a bridge.  This bridge was not long, but it was a bit high, and it did cross some water.  The bridge seemed stable enough, and I was certain that many people, even that very day, had probably gone across it before me.  But what if?  What if the bridge wasn’t able to hold me?  What if it was trustworthy for all the others but not for me? 

I held back and observed a while.   

Where I was hoping to go was on the other side of the expanse that the bridge crossed.  I had to cross that bridge to get there.  There was really no other way, but the what ifs had me trapped in doubt.

Sedon Az.

Faith can be a lot like that. 

Hebrews 11:1 tells us this, “Now faith is confidence in what we hope for and assurance about what we do not see”.

Hebrews 11 is affectionately known as the “Hero’s of the faith” chapter.  Here we see a list of some of the big-name heroes of old, whose names we easily recognize and associate with faith.

By faith, Moses’ parents hid him for three months…

By faith…Noah built an ark…

By faith, Abraham went to a new place, even though he did not know where he was going…

By faith, the Israelites passed through the Red Sea on dry land…

And on and on. 

So, what makes the difference between big faith, and not so big faith?  How do we measure faith?  When you consider the faith life of those you know with “big faith”, what is it that makes them different?  Why is their faith bigger?  I’ve got one word for you.  Obedience.

Sedona Az.

What if we trade the word faith for the word obedience in the hero chapter?  “In obedience Moses’ parents hid him.  In obedience Noah built an ark.  In obedience Abraham went to a new place.”  The correlation between faith and obedience is striking. 

It’s easy for me, and probably you too, to talk about faith.  We have faith in God about many things.  We have faith that God will care for us and for our family.  Faith that He will meet our physical, financial and emotional needs.  Faith that He will help us in our trials and difficulties.  And faith that He will lead us clearly in the decisions we need to make.  But sometimes it is easy to toss the word faith around as if it were a supernatural power, too lofty to grasp.  But what if…. what if we switched the word faith for obedience? 

Let’s consider it this way.  Great faith is faith in action.  Each of us knows someone to whom we attribute great faith to.  I’m willing to bet that the reason you feel that way about them, is because of the way they ACT on their faith.  The confidence and ability they have to really trust God with their hurts, struggles, decisions, and the changes in their life.

Often, we say “I want more faith!”  We want greater faith in the One who loves us.  We desire the faith to move mountains as in Matthew 17:20-21.  I suggest to you today that what you really want is more obedience! 

Faith transitions to obedience, and obedience deepens into trust.

When we act on our faith with obedience, our faith deepens.  When we put “feet on our faith” and step out in trust, we allow God to work.  From the examples given in Hebrews 11, what we see is faith in action.  God did not supernaturally build the ark for Noah, or hide Moses Himself, or even pick up Abraham and move him while he slept.  Those faithful followers of God obeyed.  They believed God would do what He said He would do, but they first had to act.  Their faith meant nothing until they acted on it.  Their story in scripture would not be listed in the “Faith Hall of Fame” if they had not actually stepped out and acted! 

Obedience can be scary. 

Very recently I was wrestling with faith and trust.  I had been feeling like God wanted me to act on my faith, and for a while I was excited and ready.  But then…I got scared.  I began to back peddle a little bit.  I was trying to “be really sure” that I was hearing God correctly.  I was fairly certain that I had heard Him clearly a few months back, but now that it was time to actually obey, I put the brakes on.  Through my doubt and apprehension, when I thought I was “making sure” of Gods will, what I was really doing was holding back.  What I lacked was obedience.

After some study of scripture, and much more prayer, I heard God again, loud and clear.  So loudly and clearly, in fact, that it left me full of joy and faith!  I can’t explain to you the amount of peace and fulfillment it brought me to truly arrive a place of perfect peace with God and His plan for me!  I was ready to step out on that bridge, so to speak.  Ready to trust His ability to keep me safe as I headed to the other side.

Is there a situation in your life where you feel God calling you to action, but you are fearful?  Are you holding back right now because you are scared about the outcome?  Is there a phone call you need to make?  A relationship that needs healing? A friendship that needs to end? A move you need to make?  A ministry you need to step into?  A job you need to change?

If the Israelites had not obeyed God and stepped into the wind tunnel of the Red Sea, they would have been overtaken by Pharaoh’s army.  If Abraham had stayed in Ur, God would not have fulfilled His promise to him that he would inherit the land.  And if Noah had been too scared to obey God and build that ark, then sister, you and I would not even be here today!

I’ll remind you now, that “faith is confidence in what we hope for and assurance about what we do not see”.  Can you trust God where you do not see?  Can you trust Him with your heart?  With your finances?  With your relationships?  The answer is yes!  A very loud and confident yes!

Pastor and Author Larry Osborn says this; “Faith looks at God and says, “I know your character.  I can trust you.”  And then it steps out onto the bridge.”

God honors our obedience! If I truly trust God, then I will display faith in action.  I will step out onto the bridge, and I will be blessed! 

Father God, I know I can trust you.  I know that you are always working for my good.  Please forgive me for not stepping out in faith and obeying you when I clearly hear you leading me.  Give me the faith to believe.  Speak to my heart and remind me of the heroes of faith and their obedience to you.  Remind me of the fabulous life of faith and blessing they led because they fully obeyed and trusted you.  Thank you for not giving up on me while I deepen my trust in your plan.  Amen.



Near Prescott Az.
My oldest daughter and I, in Sedona!

Even if…

Time is a funny thing, isn’t it?

One minute can seem so short, or so very long depending on what’s occurring within that minute.  If I am hugging my friend goodbye and she will be returning to her home far away, that one minute of hugs can pass so quickly.  But if I am anxiously standing by my coffee maker at 5 a.m. waiting for it to finish my wake-up juice, that same minute is LONG.  Watching my grandchildren play at the park for one minute seems far shorter than the one minute I spend jogging around that same park.  Uncomfortable and painful situations take longer to change than happy ones, or at least so it seems.

2019 was a very difficult year for me.  My heart, my faith and my strength were tested in a powerful way.  That year seemed like the longest year of my life.  (even after all the trials of 2020, 2019 was longer for me by far).  It was a year of difficulty and heart break.  It was a year of struggle and hurt.  And when it was over, the new year emerged almost as a breath of fresh air. 

I learned so very much that year.  I learned to truly trust the process, the way that God works.  Like you, I want God to work faster, more on my timetable.  Because when I hurt, I want it to end quickly.  But I learned that year, that some things can’t be rushed.  That, in order for there to be beauty from ashes, something must first burn.  I learned that refining fire is a real thing, and that impurities rise to the top first when heat is applied.  When the “heat” was applied in my life during this time, I became more aware of some of my own weaknesses.  I came face to face with trusting God in a solid and fresh way.  The rubber met the road, metaphorically speaking.

During that time, I was encouraged by a friend with this scripture from a Psalm by King David.  It is Psalm 27:13-14 “I remain confident of this; I will see the goodness of the Lord in the land of the living.  Wait for the Lord; take heart and wait for the Lord.”   I was especially encouraged by this because David was trusting God for His help in a circumstance, and he was counting on seeing God’s goodness here on earth. 

Near Bell Rock, Sedona Ariaona

King David had many trials and many foes.  It seems like someone was almost always going after him.  He cried out to God often for His help and guidance.  In the beginning of Psalm 27, we find David in a struggle of some kind.  Here, David seems to be reminding himself that he need not fear his enemies. In verse one he says, “The Lord is the stronghold of my life, of whom shall I be afraid?”.  And again, in verse three, “though war break out against me, even then I will be confident”.  He is remembering where his strength comes from.  This is a definite strength of David’s.  He understood well that God alone could rescue and save him.  And that his enemies were greater than him and his men could handle without God’s divine intervention.  It’s possible that David was in exile here.

But whatever the case, it’s clear that something was causing him great anguish.  I understand that feeling wholeheartedly.  Over the course of this Psalm, David developed a kind of “Even If” mentality.  “God, even if my enemies surround me, God is my helper.  Even if my family forsakes me, God will receive me.  Even if trouble finds me, God will keep me safe in His dwelling.”  

For me, in 2019, I embraced some “even if’s” as well.  For me it looked like, even if things don’t turn around with this situation, God is with me.  Even if things are never good again (regarding this issue), I can still trust God because He isn’t finished yet.  Even if I continue to hurt and my heart continues breaking, it is because of evil in the world and not because this is God’s plan.  Those even ifs were tough to swallow, I can promise you that.  They did not slide down easily; they choked and scratched their way into my soul.  But the Lord kept bringing many scriptures to mind, and Psalm 27;13-14 was among them.

I held on to the promise that God was not done writing that story, and that someday (and most days, someday felt very far off) I would see His goodness here, in this life.  The Psalmist remained confident of that, and I chose to do the same.  There were times that I struggled to believe it, but I clung to that verse like a life raft.  Verse 14 told me to “wait for the Lord, be strong and take heart, and wait……”  So, I waited.

And prayed.

And sought His face (vs. 8)

And waited some more.

And one day it happened.

I looked up and realized I was seeing the goodness of the Lord in the land of the living!  And day after day, I kept looking for it, and it kept coming!  And before I had stopped to realize it, two years had passed, far more quickly than I ever thought they could.  It had felt, for a while, like time stood still.  Like nothing was happening.  Like things were not getting any better.  But when God is at work, things are changing behind the scenes, even though we may not see it from our point of view.   John 5:17 “But Jesus replied, “My Father is always working, and so am I.”” 

Bell Rock, Sedona Arizona

He never stops working.

Maybe you are in a difficult season.  Maybe you find yourself doubting that things will ever turn around.  Maybe you feel trapped and discouraged, but you are never without hope. Charles Spurgeon said that “Hope is heavens balm for present sorrow.”  I can always put my hope in the Lord and His ability to right wrongs, and to mend hearts.

We serve a God who is not intimidated by situations that seem impossible!  The Israelites crossed The Red Sea, David won against Goliath, the walls of Jericho collapsed with just a shout, and Jesus Christ came back to life after death on a Roman cross!  There is still hope when all seems hopeless. 

Be strong and take heart sister.  While you are waiting, God is working.  Seek the Lord, keep trusting Him when it’s the hardest, and someday you will see the goodness of the Lord in the land of the living. You can remain confident of that!



Maybe it’s time

This weekend I had the privilege of attending a local event called the IF Gathering.  Presenters and speakers included Jenny Allen (founder and organizer), Lysa Terkeurst, Jackie Hill Perry, Francis Chan, and David Platt, just to name a few of my favorites!  It was truly a wonderful weekend that challenged me spiritually, encouraged my heart, and provided some much-needed connection to women in a group setting, with a focus on the word of God. I’d go again next weekend if I could!

It was a refreshing time after such a long, dry, desert year of isolation, disconnect, distancing, and struggle.  Let’s be honest, 2020 took more from us than we realize.  And for me, a few of the things that I lost are only becoming clear now that some things are returning to normal.  Connecting corporately with my sisters in Christ is one of them.  There was power and encouragement this weekend in the large group setting, as we sang worship to God, we prayed together, and we all sat under the same teaching and were inspired toward spiritual growth.    

Because I was able to experience that kind of setting again, I realized then how much I had missed it!  And it got me to thinking about how much all of us have missed it too. 

Except for a brief time when my church stopped meeting in person, I didn’t stop going to church weekly during the pandemic.  But I know some of you did, and let me say, I understand.  I get it.  There was a lot of uncertainty about the safety of gathering, and there were procedures put into place that made church attendance a less positive experience. But it was difficult not being together.  Thankfully, there was the convenience of being able to have church at home through, online streaming. Online church is surely better than no church at all!

But can I dig deep, go low, and be super honest with you?  It’s not the same.

It is a temporary fix to a short-term problem. Church at home was never intended to be the “norm” for the long term.  I want to encourage you right now, to go back to church!  Staying only online is staying disconnected in many ways. Maybe for you, it’s just time to go back for the first time in a long time. Maybe the reason you’re not in church has nothing to do with Covid or 2020. But perhaps you have felt the call of God on your heart during the pandemic, to dig into His word again. If you’ve done that, you are probably feeling closer to God and ready for more.  God has always been about relationship and He will use His word to draw us to Himself in that way.  He will also draw us to other believers in that same way. There is strength in numbers, we need to be together.

What does scripture have to say about church attendance and fellowship with believers?  A great deal actually.

In the book of Acts, we see the Gentile believers gathering for teaching and encouragement.  There is a clear example for us there of the believer’s strength in being together with one focus and intent.  They gathered to support each other in tough times, and they gathered to hear the word taught to them.  In Hebrews 10:25, Paul gives us some instructions.  He says, “And let us not neglect our meeting together, as some people do, but encourage one another, especially now that the day of his return is drawing near.”  What God is telling us through the Apostle Paul, is that we need to be together as followers of Jesus. He’s telling us that it is important!

Now I can read your thoughts already….” Shelli, I still read my bible!” or “I watch church online…” or even “I worship when I’m in nature.”  But I want to tell you that as good as those things are (and they are good things), they simply aren’t enough.  I know, I know. I’m up in your business now……hang in there with me!

Several things happen when we gather for worship and teaching. 

The first thing is that we are able to encourage each other.  Hebrews 10:24 says, “Let us think of ways to motivate one another to acts of love and good works.”  This verse immediately proceeds verse 25 which talks about about continuing to meet together.  I think the reason is because being together is encouraging.  When we are together, it is natural that we will encourage each other toward love and good works. And when we are not together, that becomes harder.  I don’t know about you, but left alone, I am selfish.  I become “me focused” instead of “others focused”.  I typically can’t see past my own issues, and I begin to feel like I am alone in my struggles.  When I am active in church (which is a family) I realize that others struggle too, that I am not alone in my brokenness.  And that I have a support system around me when things get tough.  They encourage me!

Another thing that happens when we gather is that the Holy Spirit shows up.  We see this in the early days of the church.  Jesus gives some important teaching in Matthew chapter 18. In that teaching He reminds us in verse 20, that, “where two or three gather in my name, there am I with them.”  He is referring to the Holy Spirit!  Jesus promised that the Holy Spirit would come after He was crucified. The Holy Spirit shows up when we are together!  I have been in church during a time of powerful worship and truly felt the Spirit in the room.  I treasure those times. Knowing that He is with you and me now, 2000 years later, is tremendously encouraging!

When we gather, we build community.  Together we can accomplish more for His kingdom.  Together we are unified and empowered.  When we grow together, we become the Body of Christ.  Romans 12:4-8 says this, “For just as each of us has one body with many members, and these members do not all have the same function, so in Christ we, though many, form one body, and each member belongs to all the others.  We have different gifts, according to the grace given to each of us.”  The idea here is that we need each other, living in community, to be complete.  You and I have a purpose in church, and it isn’t only to sit and take notes.  It is to connect and encourage.  It is to be a part of The Body and to be there for each other.  When you aren’t there, something is missing.  It’s missing from your life, and it is missing from the life of the person you are not connecting with, in your absence.

We are less vulnerable to the enemy when we gather.  1 Peter 5:8 is a powerful image. It Reminds us that the enemy is real and determined.  “Stay alert! Watch out for your great enemy, the devil. He prowls around like a roaring lion, looking for someone to devour.”  When we gather to connect, worship, and learn, we are harder for the enemy to harass, because we are not on our own. 

I imagine that you’ve seen enough nature shows in your life to understand this next concept.  Try to envision a pack of Hyena’s scavenging along, searching for food. Those ugly, vicious, scraggly looking predators!  Now insert a herd of zebras.  Those hyena’s, like the enemy, are surveying that herd, looking for the one zebra that will be easy prey.  Typically, that’s the one at the back of the group, traveling slower, and alone.  The hyenas will swoop in and attack when that lone zebra is far from the group, when the group is unable to come to its rescue.  He becomes easy prey.

Sister, you and I are more easily overtaken by the enemy when we are not connected.

Many of us have gotten away from our habit of going to church in the last year.  Many of us have “wandered from the herd” in 2020.  Now it’s 2021, and we’re still wandering. Sister, I understand, and I see the valid reasons why it happened. I don’t fault you for those decisions. But my plea to you is this. 

Go back.

It’s time for the church to rise up.  It’s time for us to be united in our faith.  It’s time for us to be connected again, and to grow together.  It’s time for us to sing together, to pray together, to study the word together.  It’s time for us to rejoin the body and encourage one another in the faith, and it’s time to gather again. Let’s be together in church, in God’s house, as a group.

I felt it this weekend, I felt that connection I was missing.  I hadn’t realized just how badly I was missing it until I had it again.  So, if you’re reading this now and you’re thinking “Yeah, but I’m ok.  I haven’t been to church in a while, but I feel ok.  I still read my bible, I still pray, I still sing…”  my encouragement to you is, to just do it.  Just go.  Make a commitment right now to get in your car next Sunday morning and go back to church!  Your soul needs it, and the body of believers in your home church need you there!

Do what you need to do to get there but get there!  You will be both encouraged AND an encouragement to others!



Chasing grace

I’m sure that you have heard of the Amish practice of shunning people.  The concept is that if an individual within their close knit community breaks one or more of their most tightly held beliefs, they are shunned.  Members in good standing “isolate, ignore, or otherwise punish someone for breaking community rules.”  When someone is shunned, the community does not eat with, do business with, accept gifts or rides from the shunned individual. It is an isolation meant to force the deviant person to see the error of their ways and re commit to the Amish ways, and beliefs.

This practice sounds like the exact opposite of grace.

Grace is defined as receiving something you do not deserve.  Like God’s unconditional love and salvation.

The grace of God is a concept that most modern religions do not recognize.  In religion, one must do good works, pay penance to God, or work to achieve a higher version of one’s self through reincarnation.  A person must try hard to become enlightened or ascend somehow in their spirituality to receive the favor of God.  These ideas are not biblical.  If you and I could do it ourselves, then tell me what the cross was for?  Galatians 2:21 tells us that we cannot attain righteousness in our flesh “I do not set aside the grace of God, for if righteousness could be gained through the law, (always doing only right things) Christ died for nothing!”  But Jesus did not die for nothing, He came that we may have life in Him!

So the grace of God is an unearned gift!   

The undeserved grace of God is a tremendous thing!  Ephesians 2:8-9 in the NLT says it like this “God saved you by his grace when you believed. And you can’t take credit for this; it is a gift from God. Salvation is not a reward for the good things we have done, so none of us can boast about it.”  Do you see it?  None of us receive the love of God because of what we have done!  We receive it because of who HE is.

It seems a natural thing to try to win God’s love or approval.  But I want you to consider something that maybe you haven’t before.  If you have accepted the free gift of salvation that Jesus offered to us when He gave His life on the cross of Calvary, then sister, you already have God’s complete and unconditional love!  You can stop chasing grace…it is already yours!

The truth is, you and I could never be “good enough” to deserve God’s love.  We can never do “more good than bad”.  We can never ascend to a place of holiness on our own, that would cause God to say that we have earned our way in. Honestly, trying to earn it is what causes us to stray from His love in the first place.  “Earning grace” looks like rules.  It looks like legalism.  It surfaces as the false belief that if I just follow all the rules, never slip up, do all the right things, that God will see me as worthy.  But only if…

If we think that somehow, we need to earn His grace, then we don’t really understand the concept of grace.  Grace is love freely given, undeserved.

The moment we start trying to earn it, grace loses its power.  When we earn something like our paycheck or an award, it always comes as a result of our efforts.  A payment or reward for something worked for and earned.

However, when I understand that grace has nothing to do with me, and everything to do with Him, I can rest in the peace and assurance that I don’t need to earn it, just let it flow over me like cool water on a hot day.  Soothing my soul and providing comfort and assurance, love and peace, hope and joy.

The result of receiving the love and grace of God, is what spurs us on to demonstrate our love back to Him, by following what He says in His word.  The kindness I receive from God through grace causes me to want to love and follow Him even more.  God’s kindness is meant to lead us to repentance, Romans 2:4 speaks to that.  Here’s what I am trying to say in a nutshell, we do not love and follow God so that He will love us, we love and follow God because He already does!

A favorite song of mine right now is Holy Water by We The Kingdom.  This song is one for the books!  I never get tired of hearing it.  There is a line in the song that goes like this;

“I don’t wanna abuse Your grace,

God, I need it every day,

It’s the only thing that ever really makes me wanna change”. 

It’s the kindness and grace of God that makes me want to change as a person.  It’s His grace that draws me into relationship with Him.  Grace leads me home.  The grace of God beckons me into His loving presence in a way that fear, and the Amish practice of shunning, never would.  Those things only serve to cause me to want to please people, to do the things needed for acceptance.  But they don’t really change the heart.  1 Samuel 16:7 tells us what God cares most about.  “The LORD does not look at the things people look at. People look at the outward appearance, but the LORD looks at the heart.”  He looks at our inner most desires (pleasing people or pleasing Him) and He sees our motives. 

I hope that you’ll let this sink in.  That you’ll stop chasing grace.  That, instead, you will turn and see that what you have been seeking, is already yours. 

Grace changes everything!



Losing power

Walking and talking with friends.  I love it!  There’s no better way to spend a couple of hours with a friend than getting fresh air, sunshine, and a good old heart to heart!

~walking buddy~

As my walking buddy and I ventured on a 5 mile “excer-talk” (I’m trademarking this phrase BTW!) this week, the topic of our discussion made its way to sin.  Sin is an uncomfortable and not very Politically Correct 2021 word, but it’s not something we should ignore, or sugar coat. 

Sin is something that we don’t like to admit.  We tend to gather with friends and talk about life, and family, fun things, and even the good things that God is doing in our lives.  And there is NOTHING wrong with that.  It’s all part of building relationships and connecting with others.  Something I feel very strongly about and encourage.

But, if we’re honest, we don’t often talk about sin in our lives.  We shy away from the truth of it to protect what we think should be our image as a believer in Jesus.  But sister, we ALL have sin in our lives.  We are humans, living in a broken world, waiting for Jesus to take us home.  And until He does, sin will be part of our existence.

So, what is sin?

Sin, by definition, is anything we think, say, or do that displeases God.  Well, alrightythen!  When you put it that way, I guess it’s easy to admit that we’re all guilty of sin. I know I am.  Every day.

I wish it weren’t true, I wish I was able to please God all the time, every day, and never hurt the Lord again with my sin.  Romans 3:23 tells us “For everyone has sinned; we all fall short of God’s glorious standard.”  Did you catch it?  Everyone. 

I have the most beautiful places to walk

Scripture is FULL of verses that lead us as to what to do about our sin.  The theme is always the same, no matter the verse.  Confession.  Confession is the answer to breaking the power of sin over us.

Imagine this for a moment if you will.  Imagine you have gone to bed for the night, you are cozy and comfortable in bed, the lights are out, and you are ready to really relax.  And then you hear it.  In the dark you hear something scratching across the floor in your room (ok, you also have to imagine that you have a wood floor if you have carpet but stick with me here).  You don’t know what “it” is really, but you can hear something scratching and crawling its way toward you.  In the dark, you can’t deal with or understand what “it” is.  Is it a bug, a snake, or a dragon (*wink*) coming at you?  There, in the dark, alone with your thoughts, the fear and power in your head just grows stronger.

You have two choices here.  You can lay there in the dark, hoping that you are wrong about whatever it is, hoping that it will crawl OUT of your room, and not into your bed.  You can continue to lay there, paralyzed by the thing that is holding you prisoner to your own fears, and letting it rule over you there in the dark.


You can do the brave thing, pull back the covers, find the lamp by your bed, and switch on the light!  Only then will you be able to really deal with whatever “it” is. 

Shining light onto whatever is holding you hostage has a way of breaking the power of darkness.

I really took that!

Think of it this way. 

I have sin.  You have sin.  Sin is not something we are proud of, so we hide it.  We don’t talk about it with anyone. 

We keep telling ourselves that “today is the day that I will get a handle on my sin.  I can do it.  I need to do it.  I will beat it, so that I don’t have to admit it or tell anyone else about it. I need to continue to hide it so that I don’t disappoint people by letting them know the truth about me.  I will be a better witness of faith when I fix it, and THEN I can share my faith.  I am different than other Christians because of my sin.  I don’t see them struggling with this sin; therefore, I need to handle this myself.  Then I will fit in with them.  I am only good enough once I have this is under control.”


Straight from the enemy.

Let’s not forget what 1 Peter 5:8 says.  “Stay alert! Watch out for your great enemy, the devil. He prowls around like a roaring lion, looking for someone to devour.”  The best way for the enemy to keep power over us as believers is to keep us in the dark.  And there we are afraid to admit our sin, even to God and especially to each other.  The enemy wants to keep us believing the lie that we need to live this way and be ashamed. He wants us to think that we need to fix our sin before God or people will love us. In this way, he can continue to hold power over our lives.

The truth of sin and forgiveness is all over God’s word.  Scripture is loaded with the solution to our struggles if we will just read and follow what it says.  I submit to you that in order to win the battle going on inside our minds and hearts about sin, that we must bring it into the light!  If we will bravely admit our struggles to one another, (a trusted friend or a spouse or a pastor, whomever you feel is most deserving of your trust) sin immediately begins to lose its power over you.  Immediately.

James 5:16 “Therefore, confess your sins to one another and pray for one another, that you may be healed…”

1 John 1:9 “If we confess our sins, he is faithful and just to forgive us our sins and to cleanse us from all unrighteousness.”

Galatians 6:2 “Bear one another’s burdens, and so fulfill the law of Christ.”

And this one.  Proverbs 28:13 “Whoever conceals his transgressions will not prosper, but he who confesses and forsakes them will obtain mercy.”

Confession is like shining a light on that thing crawling in your bedroom at night in the dark.  The light causes it to lose the power and stronghold of fear that the darkness creates.  Are you with me yet?

this lake is a favorite place to walk

Sin loses its power over us when we confess and let it into the light.

What is your struggle?  What is your sin? 

Is it overspending?  Overindulging?  Lying?  A sexual sin?  An addiction? A critical spirit? A bad temper?  A foul mouth? Constant fear? Continual worry?

Sin is anything we think, say, or do that displeases God.

Keeping it exclusively to yourself is only furthering the power it holds on your life.  I encourage you to talk to someone about it.  Not everyone, but someone.

I hope that you have a trusted someone in your life, with whom you can be honest about your struggle.  You will want to pray about this for a while before you choose that someone.  Naturally, you will want to share only with someone whom you feel will love unconditionally and who will keep you accountable.  Someone who has your best interest in mind.  Someone who will pray for you. Someone spiritually mature. 

And it’s scary.  It’s scary to admit your sin and your struggle to another.  Keeping it secret feels safer, but it isn’t always.  Only when the secret is out, does it lose its power

I encourage you to confess it first to God, and then pray, pray, pray about who you will trust with your struggle. 

I hope that you will choose to be free of the power of sin in your life!  Listen, we will not be able to completely stop sinning this side of heaven, but we do not have to live under the power of darkness.  Romans 8:1 reminds us, “There is therefore now no condemnation for those who are in Christ Jesus.”

Christ did not save us to leave us the way we were.  He came to give us salvation through Him and a full life!  John 10:10 “The thief comes only to steal and kill and destroy; I have come that they may have life and have it to the full!”

One of the many steps to living a full life is confession. First to God and then in honesty to another Christ follower. Sin most often loses its power when we bring it into the light of the love of the Lord.  There, He can begin the healing and strengthening process.  There, He can work with us on the freedom we have in Christ.  We do not have to be trapped and powerless.  We can be FREE!

Heavenly Father, I am sick of my sin.  I am sick of hiding it and letting it rule over me.  I was foolish to think that, on my own, I can stop.  That alone I can somehow win this battle.  Father, I confess I need your help. I also know that being honest about it with another will help break the chain.  Lord, show me who I may be able to trust with my struggle.  I know that in You and through confession, sin will lose the power it holds on me in the darkness.  Thank you that because of Jesus in my life, I do not have to live this way any longer.   Amen.

clouds are a favorite of mine to photograph

Grab your shovel

I bet you’re like me sometimes.  

I wish things in my life were different.  I wish I was different.  I wish change was easier.  I wish situations improved quicker. 

Matthew 17:20 says “I tell you the truth, if you had faith even as small as a mustard seed, you could say to this mountain, “move from here to there,” and it would be done.  Nothing would be impossible.” 

Do you have a “mountain” in your life?  I think we all do.  My mountain is likely very different than yours, but I imagine that we each have a mountain of some kind. 

Granite Mountain, near home

This past summer, my daughter and her hubby wanted to change the landscape of their back yard.  They had moved into their new home a couple of years before, and the backyard did not come landscaped.  Having two small children, a dog, and yard full of goat heads was not a great combination.  As time went by, they pulled together some money and ordered rock (rock is just what you do in Arizona!).  They ordered a lot of rock.  20 tons to be exact. 

I wish you could have seen this giant pile of rock!  It was delivered and unloaded into a colossal pile in the street in front of their home.  This pile of rock needed to be moved into the back yard, through a narrow side gate.  There were some tools to help, like a small tractor with a small trailer, and shovels.  But that giant pile of rock had to be moved from the mountain of rock, into the small trailer, one shovelful at a time.  It was hot, strenuous work.  (not that I helped…. yard work is a spectator sport for me!)  

It took several adults, two full days to move the rock, and spread it out evenly in the back yard.   

Now their yard is a wonderful place where the kids and the dog can play and run!  The feeling of relief and accomplishment when the last shovelful of rock went into the yard was tremendous!  Finally, they could all rest. 

Often, there is no other way to move a mountain, but one shovelful at a time.  The blessings are not only enjoyed when the work is finished, but they are realized in the process too. 

The mountain in Matthew 17:20 is a proverbial illustration.  It is not a literal possibility, if it were, people of faith would be reconstructing the landscape of this earth on a regular basis.  Furthermore, if you and I had the ability to boss mountains around, that “power” could easily and quickly be used for our own devices, and not as a display of God’s ultimate power and glory. 

Rather, it is in scripture to teach us a lesson.  Faith is most often developed one “shovelful” at a time. 

Exer-walking with my tribe this summer!

When you and I allow God to work on our hearts and lives through change, we “exercise” our faith.  Exercising our muscles makes our muscles strong, and exercising our faith makes our faith strong.   

Let’s pretend for a moment that we asked God to move a mountain, to change something in our life.  And He did it in a flash, a blink.  (Think Star Trek “beam me up, Scotty”).  We could arrive on the other side of our trial instantly and without struggle! (This is something that we spend a lot of time in life wishing were the case).  But, if that really did happen, we would miss so much.  We would miss the opportunity to grow our faith muscle.  We would miss the process of diligently, shovel by shovel, building trust as we watched the mountain be moved.   

Because God is almighty, He could choose to move our mountain anyway He chooses.  But there is a lesson for us when He chooses not to move it instantly.  God certainly does not need our help to move any mountain, but because He is always at work for our best, He often hands us the shovel.  Therefore, giving you and I the opportunity to grow! 

So, what’s your mountain?  What situation in your life seems insurmountable?  What situation seems so big that you can’t believe that it even could change?    Maybe it’s so big that you don’t really pray about it, you have just accepted it as fact.  But we serve a big God!  Our God can move mountains!  Both figuratively and literally.   

Maybe it’s time to talk to Him about it, whatever it is.  Maybe it’s time to pick up the shovel, and bit by bit, one shovelful at a time, allow Him to work.  Do you feel a call on your heart toward change?  Maybe it’s a personal change (like a goal).  Maybe it’s a relational change (like improving or starting one).  Maybe it’s a ministry change (are you feeling pulled to join one?). Or even a job or location change. 

There are also mountains in the lives of those we care about.  Situations in our loved ones’ lives that are not right, that cause us worry and heartache.  These mountains can often feel even larger than our own personal mountains, because there is so little we can do ourselves to change them.  But trust me when I say that I have seen the biggest mountains EVER, be completely thrown into the sea.   

Whatever your mountain is, Proverbs 3:5-6 speaks directly to it.  “Trust in the Lord with all your heart; do not depend on your own understanding.  Seek His will in all you do, and He will show you which path to take. (NLT) 

He will move the mountain when the time is right. We must reject the thought that He isn’t working when He doesn’t change everything quickly. He will almost always hand us a shovel, and give us a chance to grow.   

~~These Cana Lilies grow in my back yard~~My hubby is the gardener~~I just watch!